I could be toxic!

cant be cruel

2010-09-03T22:57:00.004+04:00

I cant believe how some people can be so cold and heartless...
yes when i get mad or upset at something or someone.. I will sure not be my normal self , I would cry , I would raise my voice maybe or just sit all alone and try to sleep and sleep to forget about it ..

But i never thought for a moment there would be people around who would want to harm me .. while I treated them so right , i was there for them while they needed me in good and bad, i showed them how much i love them and how much i care about them, even in the smallest silliest ways ever.

because thats just me... i love to see people around happy and smiling, yes i care too much sometimes and it might be annoying to some. like when my brothers stay out late ,I keep calling them till i make sure they are fine.. its out of love not being noisy or anything i just want to make sure they are just fine..I cant sleep sometimes when I feel like i might did something wrong to someone and will bother me till it even hunt my dreams sometimes..

It hits me sometimes and i go like I should treat all those who did harm me the same way.. swear at their faces, talk behind their backs around everyone, or physically and hurt them the way they did to me.. but I cant i just cant,,, its not me... for a long time i have been thinking what did I do wrong? what did I do to make them do this? and when i try to collect all the things around me that happened , i doubt myself again and again thinking no way .. NO ONE WILL EVER hurt anyone this way without a reason so i keep thinking i might be "wrong" ... but all the things that i did to them...didn't and wouldn't harm them in anyway ...

it hurts so bad that when you do all the good things and get that kind of a reaction ...a bad one..

I wouldnt lie and say I tried to be like them ...cruel
but in the end of the day i would hate myself because am just not that person,, am not like them
I just cant be like that , sometimes i wish soo bad i can be 10% like them to show them how does it feels like... i failed badly ...

I failed but am Happy that am not that low am just not

am blessed to have good people around me
this year has been a really hard year, i have seen lot of masks falling off
but it made me who i am..it did teach me lot of lessons

stay up, raise ur head up high and dont look down two the lower level ... they wouldn't be like you and I wouldnt change who they are...

have a lovely day

2010-08-27T04:27:00.000+04:00

Barcelona: Part One

2010-08-22T00:36:00.004+04:00

To all Barca Fan
in this day we won over Sevilla FC 4-0 :P

Tagged

2010-08-10T02:52:00.002+04:00

Tagged By Kitten

sorry i had to do this long time ago and i just remembered since i kept it on my draft

6 things people can’t tell about you when they first meet you:

1- Babies are my weakness, if i saw one i would lose my focus right away lol

2-I love politics! people would think am this girl who wont ever be interested in such a thing, but am into politics i love to watch political debates and i would love to be a part of one , one day ,Political science was one of the majors i wanted to study.

3-I would touch a snake but i would NEVER EVER like to even LOOK at a cockroach they discuss me the most!

4- I know how to shot, yes using a gun and Rifle.

5- am a very very proud Omani ! am nice and all, but when it comes to Oman you better be careful .

6- I love Hello Kitty LOL! i think shes adorable and cute! i want her toaster and

I would like to thank Kitten for the tag :)

Madrid

2010-07-26T22:14:00.008+04:00

Who ever goes to Madrid should visit the

Santiago Bernabéu Stadium of "Real Madrid"

am not a fan of them am a Barcelona fan ,but we have 3 Real Madrid Fans in the house lol ,so we had to go there, it was fun to be honest , for me to see the history of the team and how it started ,since it was open in 1902!

We were looking for a place that serves Halal food for lunch,This Arabian restaurant which was "NEW" as they said , very tiny but it costs 3times the price of any high class restaurant in Oman it was funny that they didn't even have a menu in arabic nor english! only Spanish the arabian waiter was working there didnt even understand arabic very well! lol it was a shock to me to be honest i felt sorry for "us" Arabs , whenever anyone comes to oman and doesnt look "Omani or Arab" talk to them in English without a second thought. here you will see very rare people talking other than their language

M Vodafone SIM Card .. also no directions in English "ALL SPANISH!"
LOVED their architecture so beautiful

Spain

2010-07-26T02:36:00.004+04:00

Am in Spain with My Family in Madrid to be exact
Took this Picture of their flag today.. will try to keep up loading pictures of this beautiful country

itf full of culture .. which i love

The Pain Is Gone

2010-07-23T05:11:00.002+04:00

The Pain is Gone
in my thoughts I just drown
but The scars are Remain

Whenever i Look at them I remember You
I remember how much pain you have Cost me
I remember that I should walk away
But am still here
but the pain is gone

marks
scars
& tears

that what have left on me

You
Your Pain
& Your words

that what have left me

I keep my head up high
and let my spirit fly
without asking why

My pride will never go down
I will never be a clown
like you
or for you
my Pride is my Crown
and The Pain is just Gone
The Pain is Gone ...

Steve Jobs throough the Years 1998-2010

2010-07-20T17:58:00.002+04:00

wow he doesnt like to change his style doesnt he!
source

inspiration in a picture

2010-07-17T05:12:00.002+04:00

I Stand up

2010-07-15T19:35:00.007+04:00

I cry
and my tears dropping down
and i look at them
dropping in the ground
while no one is around

tear by tear
drop by drop

till i can see my reflection

who's that girl crying?
I Question myself
Who's that Girl Dying
a step by step

its me?
no its it not
I forgot whos that girl is
and its Just me...*sigh*

what happened to me
to the smile to the joy you see
I dont want to be whos in the reflection
there is no real connection

am strong
never was wrong

and I stand up
no matter how many times i fall
I stand up
I wipe my tears away
and I stand up
looking at the coming day
and when I fall
I will Stand up

no tear I will show
no fear I will grow

the old me is gone
and my life line is drawn

World Cup Final match

2010-07-11T22:00:00.001+04:00

Holland Vs Spain Final match in the WC
i would miss the WC so much since it was fun to watch
am sad that Brazil was kicked out soo soon , and thats why am cheering for SPAIN!

stand up for myself

2010-07-04T22:22:00.002+04:00

it amazes me when I see girls nearly going to hit their 30s! saying things and act completely different! when you act like school girls and dont know how to start a conversation but only ganging up on others ,dont be surprised or get upset when i say you act childish :) and let me break it for you , no you are not "always" right ... "mature ppl" face their problems they dont just stand in the side with a bunch of girls and start talking about ppl... am tired of this i dont need drama,i have been thru alot in high school days and I didnt stand up for myself and kept quite whenever you do that, now i have changed to the better :) I did my part ,you did nothing.. so yeah i feel good about myself.. am old for this drama i dont need it!

am happy and i feel blessed this year has been one of the best in a hard way i have discovered lot of things

Phet

2010-06-03T11:47:00.004+04:00

In 2007 Guno hurricane hit oman, and costed lot of damage to the some areas..it was horrible.
now in 2010 they said there is a hurricane called "Phet" might hit oman in those couple days ..

i hope its not so serious we need rain yes but we dont need hurricanes ..
so may god have mercy on us.. we wish for the best

Resist the Power! Saudi Arabia

2010-05-27T16:13:00.003+04:00

watch his interesting show by mtv

I didnt like some parts to be honest they .. us arabs MIGHT understand whats going on in there but them "western" would get it in a bad way and think its "ISLAM" not just the culture in ksa
share your thought

and the most shallow person award goes to...

2010-05-25T18:43:00.004+04:00

...This American solider who video taped Iraqi innocent kids and kept making fun of them and called them "Gay and terrorists" he called the video "future gay terrorist" and posted in his FB page... so disturbing I really feel so bad for those kids he has NO reason to do such a thing boredom or whatever they call it.. you cant do such a thing to "KIDS" they are kids for god's sake! really it makes burn inside to see such a thing , Iraqis or not they are kids!

watch

source

الي ما يعرف الصقر... يشويه

2010-05-21T06:22:00.002+04:00

Its an Arabic saying i cant explain it 100% lol
but its says "who doesn't know whats a falcon is,would eat it" *i don't wanna say fry it will sound cheesy lol

and its so true...
who doesn't know who you really are would do stuff to you that would hurt you
but they will regret later .. so bad ;)

funny how when you treat people in a good way they stab you in the back
and they worth nothing..
when i look at who i am and who are they i can see them soo low and down there..
am up why would i look down?

I can't even believe that I gave them a chance to be a part of my life, why would I?

5alene foq a7san wa 5alehum t7t in their dirty ugly world

Shots I Took

2010-05-20T11:17:00.000+04:00

Miss made me sad 2010

2010-05-19T04:11:00.005+04:00

Miss USA 2010 Is a 24 year old stunning arab girl who lives in USA *Muslim* only by name in my opinion* her name is Rima Fakir

People went crazy when she won.. *Arabs to be exact* they think its a good thing that she won as the first "Muslim" Arab.. she is beautiful and all but seriously..
why would we feel happy ? is it something that Arabs achieved and should be proud of? what to be proud of.. seeing a muslim girl showing off her body in a bikini and did nothing good to the community she lives in .and have been a winner of a strip club pole competition ? and they present her as the first Muslim Miss USA LOL!

wow just wow
that made me sad

The Difference between a Woman and a Man

2009-11-01T21:28:00.000+04:00

Ma na Ma naa

2009-10-25T23:58:00.002+04:00

whenever am in a Bad mood
I would watch this to feel better
its funny!

This is Stupid

2009-10-24T23:42:00.005+04:00

So the job is ok
at least i feel like am doing something!
am happy that I learn and get experience *coz that was my goal*
our manager is very helpful which is a great thing and you cant always have a cool manager!

the thing that i cant get over with is how some people react when they see me in the office

- "entee hena?? mn mata?! 3ad ma was6a?!" wth i accepted the job in the college so no one say this word "was6a" and i think when someone envy's you they would say it no matter how they believe you deserved at the first place.

-"oh ashoof el '6fareyat kathro fel college" aha so el'6ofaris are not Omanis ?! -_- hate those kinda comments when they include "you '6ofaries" like we are from another planet.

- a girl came into my office and was like :you are '6farya? you dont look '6fareyaa?" so how the F you figured out that am '6farya in the first place *my accent is not 100% '6ofari since i lived here my whole life BUT i didnt even talk to her i just said give me ur ID card -_-"

-there is this man in the office who i think didnt accept the fact that am new there so he acts like am not a human who needs a break and sometimes he discuss with the girl who's next to me and talk about who will take the break first and its like AM NOT THERE! and he goes like "******" is here she can stay and you go to the break if i didnt come yet~! *since we cant Leave the office empty and someone should stay*
he needs time to get used to me i guess LOL!

am still nice if this didn't stop i should do something really! I didnt even tell the manager coz am not that kinda person I give chances..and i GAVE lot of chances till now lol!

those are shots i took from my desk in the office i was doodling since we didnt have much work today, which is boring & I like to work!

<3

2009-10-22T00:16:00.000+04:00

dont be afraid to be Different

2009-10-20T16:56:00.002+04:00

Work have been tiring i dont take my break hours since i have lot of work PLUS i cant leave the office for a break if one of the 2 whos with me are not in their desks!

and I have heard some a girl who works there telling me DONT be nice here, dont even try to be nice they will all eat you up -_-

lol but i cant change myself.. its so hard since I start from 9 am till 3 PM then O have classes from 4-6pm and some from 6-8pm

Oct what a month

2009-10-18T19:56:00.000+04:00

Mac Apple freaks

2009-10-17T17:50:00.000+04:00

omg this pic made me laugh so hard

this is how I blog when am feeling it

2009-10-16T11:59:00.002+04:00

I GOT A JOB!

2009-10-12T12:06:00.004+04:00

so Monday Morning i was in my room and i got a call from a strange number around 10:34 AM I picked up since its a home/office number, in the other line i heard a ;s voice,he was like: Hello,is "M" with me?
Me: Yes??!
the Man: can you Come to the Dean's Office he wants to meet up with you
Me: Okay *sigh* what time?
Man: whenever you can, even now if you can!
ME: Ok! -_-

I freaked out i thought something happened
I was like what IF they rejected me

when i went there they told me to wait for him, my legs were shaking i tried to hide it,since there were other people waiting, i pretented that i was playing with my BB, while in my mind there was 1000 thoughts going around, after 10 mins they called me in and went inside the Dean's Office he was like:

"good morning "M" please sit ,we want you to work with us as an IT assistant,we have lot of people who wants to work here ,but we choose you because you are an active student and you have been a part of big college events and we know that you have creative ideas that we want you to share with us,and your language is excellent plus your CV is great"

I didnt know if i should be HAPPY or i should be shocked lol!
he told me we will see how you are in the Office for 3 months as a trainee.
I met up with him before and gave him my CV to get a training i told him if it was a temp job i dont mind my mail goal i told him was gain experience nothing more or less

I was happy for one reason *its not my dream job anyway* but wanted to gain experience plus i was happy that i got this without anyone's help.. I got it because i worked hard and i got what i deserve .. since i blow out 2 chances before in 2 big companies just because my mam didnt like the idea of me working and studying in another place...but here i work/study in the same place so no excuses

Coolest Ipod speakers ever!

2009-10-02T22:12:00.000+04:00

<3

2009-10-01T19:35:00.001+04:00

Are you happy?

2009-09-11T04:14:00.000+04:00

lol too funny yet true

09-09-09

2009-09-09T00:05:00.001+04:00

I feel good about this number!
i thought i was going to get married in this date *sigh* lol! yeah whatever

H1N1

2009-09-04T09:29:00.000+04:00

I Was out yesterday night
and i saw ppl in the mall wearing masks!

it made me laugh then i got that weird thinking moment saying to myself
*wow this shouldnt be funny,sick ppl are going out and i cant catch this sh*t*

Quote of the day

2009-09-01T06:46:00.000+04:00

Just a nightmare

2009-08-30T03:08:00.000+04:00

Why Do I care
is it a nightmare
playing with my hair
thinking...
should i be aware
no love no love

I kept My heart
between my hands
without looking at it
I gave it away
night and day

and i waited for the action
no satisfaction
and no passion

Where did i left my heart
My soul is apart
Did I made any wrong
is it where it doesn't belong
and i am writing this song
while am here all alone

I made a mistake
or this story is fake
I was waiting for your sake
eating my dry cupcake
looking at my phone awake
no call just a fall

the empty place of my heart
wants to be felled again

even if my heart was there
who would care
Dear lets just say
its just a nightmare ,,,

Happy Ramadan =)

2009-08-25T19:43:00.000+04:00

Quote

2009-07-13T18:52:00.000+04:00

like a feather

2009-07-06T20:08:00.000+04:00

I try
not to Cry
not to fall
and touch the floor
or to call anyone
from the empty hall

But i fell like a feather from the sky
and my thoughts keep on erasing the lies

like the sun killing the darkness
like the wind pushing the rainy clouds

and i keep falling
like a feather i fell
slowly i was falling
gentely i was laying
on the ground
and no one can found
the thoughts of mine
and the lies were gone

like A feather I fell
and i keep on falling

again and again
its like a story repeating itself
that was always kept on the shelf

and I fell

I need to Be Gone

2009-07-03T12:02:00.000+04:00

I Dont really know if any of you had this feeling before
but from now and then i get this feeling
its strange, odd and cold

I wish if i could be gone forever but watching how people who missed treat me feel about it..

its always like this. when you dont treat people right and they are out of your life , you miss them and you then know what you have been missing..

I never like to hurt anyone even if I did , i dont really mean it.

but the people that i love the most or care about tend to hurt me from a time to another.... and they judge me.. I dont know why me? look around am not the only one whos there.. so go play this with something that doesnt feel or move..

I really need to be gone
am done with this

pic:something i saw/ شي رأيته

2009-06-28T06:40:00.000+04:00

saw this in Muscat CC few days ago!
liked the massage but i was wondering! why there is no English Translation for this! we need one and then i was like hmmm.. i think Arabian people in Oman wear respectful clothes, and in One minute I changed my mind after I remembered those Gangsta wanna bees with their stupid XXXXL jeans pants and those Punk/rock stars wanna bees who wear every tight pants and put kohol on! -_- ah!

استوقفتني هذه اللافته في (ستي سنتر مسقط)
اعجبني محتوى الرساله ولكن كنت افكر لماذا لا يوجد ترجمه لللافته باللغه الانجليزيه..وقلت لنفسي ما اراه بشكل عام ان العرب في عمان يرتدون ملابس لائقه..وفي دقيقه غيرت رائي بعدما تذكرت هؤلاء الصبيه الذين يقلدون اصحاب العصابات بأرتدائهم سراويل ذات حجم كبير جدا لدرجه تجعلك تفكر بانهم صغروا حجما "فجأه" كالسيده ملعقه ولم تعد ثيابهم تلائمهم!! او هؤلاء الذين يقلدون نجوم "الروك" ويرتدون ماهو ضيق جدا ويضعون الكحل كالفتيات *وعلى بالهم مطيحين*

اخر كلمه: "مالت بس" .. اه

Ramadan and Schools/ رمضان والمدارس

2009-06-28T06:14:00.000+04:00

so Ramadan this year will start in August and this will be the timing of starting schools 2009/2010
do you think they should start schools after "ALfiter Eid" or stick to the normal timing? and why?

رمضان في هذه السنه سيصادف ان يكون عند بدء العام الدراسي2009/2010
ها تعتقدون انه من الافضل بدء السنه الدراسيه للمدراس بعد عيد الفطر او هل يفضل عدم تغيير التوقيت الدراسي

ولماذا؟

michael Jackson Dies!

2009-06-26T04:13:00.000+04:00

I was trying to enjoy my meal of "ma7she malfoof" and my drink was in my hand and i was like lets see whats new around the wrold i looked around and saw this!

yes its true and shocking for some reason i was really shocked and i couldnt eat my fav meal ,after 10 mins i completed eating tho

loved his songs

Funny Egyptian fan

2009-06-21T12:58:00.000+04:00

Egyptian fan after Brazil Defeat Omg I cried from laughing

أكلك حلال؟

2009-06-03T09:10:00.000+04:00

best TV commercial ever

FC Barcelona Vs Manchester United

2009-05-26T19:50:00.000+04:00

An amazing match is coming this wed 18:30 GMT

Barcelona Vs Manchester United

Who do u think will win?

update: barca 1: manchester 0 (lol)

update: barca 2: manchester 0 (hahaha)

"swine flu"

2009-05-01T10:44:00.000+04:00

funny

heart broken

2009-04-21T21:02:00.000+04:00

Its Hurtful when you give some people a chance to show you how much they care and dont really care!

they don't even bother to ask and check on you :)

sweet isn't it.... NOT

Video: Coolest PPL EVER!

2009-04-02T05:25:00.001+04:00

News: Natural Pepsi!!

2009-03-06T17:50:00.000+04:00

yes this is for real I would love to try this out

source

News :A REAL Pink dolphin!

2009-03-03T15:16:00.000+04:00

yes its real!

The world's only pink Bottlenose dolphin which was discovered in an inland lake in Louisiana, USA, has become such an attraction that conservationists have warned tourists to leave it alone.

Omg i want to hug it lol!

source

News : a cop hittnig a 15 year old girl so bad!

2009-03-02T20:12:00.000+04:00

Ok this might sound weird but it made me laugh in a point when he pulled her up by her hair :/ i dont know why i feel she deserves it -_-

paintball field soon in Oman

2009-02-21T18:06:00.000+04:00

this is amazing i hope they would have a special day for women! PLZ DO
they have a number in their website i think i will call them -_-

Opening Soon
Extreme Sports brings the first professional paintball field to Oman. You get to play on the all professional world cup X field. Come and feel the adrenaline of high octane action with your friends and family. The grand opening of Xtreme sports. Visit the 1st paintball field in Oman At
(Shatti Al Qurum, next to OWA)
source

She missed her flight!!

2009-02-18T09:56:00.000+04:00

OMG am dying here ROLF!!

the war has began

2009-02-15T06:41:00.000+04:00

man this college makes me feel sick!
I didnt go yesterday to register for this semester! i wanted to go just to laugh at girls wearing red in valentines day ,but I didn't..

today the classes suppose to begin *throws up*

I cant explain how much I hate this college
they dont make you feel happy about waking up everyday

stupid teachers and stupid students -_-

where can I FIND schoko bons

2009-02-11T23:33:00.000+04:00

i miss these
used to buy them when i was between 6-10
now i cant find them

anyone knows?

there is always going to be another mountian

2009-02-06T01:33:00.000+04:00

I hate this! today is suppose to be a good day since its my sister's BD
but 7 hours ago i checked out my results and I sucked BIG TIME

i couldnt help but crying
looked at myself in the mirror wiped my tears away

after that i was like let me cheer up a bit so i was browsing perez hilton stupid site just to see others Gossips and forget about mine! and i came cross this song by Miley Cyrus The Climb..
its like it made me feel better weird that i don't like her at all but her song made up my day

I can almost see it
That dream Im dreaming but
Theres a voice inside my head sayin,
Youll never reach it,
Every step Im taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

Theres always going to be another mountain
Im always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Aint about how fast I get there,
Aint about whats waiting on the other side
Its the climb

The struggles Im facing,
The chances Im taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No Im not breaking
The pain Im knowing
But these are the moments that
Im going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

Product review: benefit that gal

2009-02-05T19:41:00.000+04:00

I bought this product 2 weeks ago from sephora i dont know the price but i bought with a blush and their bad girl mascara for 29 rials, i just checked online its about 17$

anyway i love this product if you didnt try it go for it. it moisturize ur skin and it does give you that glow and brighten it in a very nice way, you will be scared when u see the color is soft pink but when u blend it it all goes away and looks perfect ... you can use it before using your foundation, for me in the morning i just apply this with some consular benetint and mascara looks awesome

you can check more about it here
http://www.welovebeauty.com/test-drive-benefits-that-gal

PIC:something made me smile

2009-02-01T15:25:00.000+04:00

I saw this in emarets mall.. it made me smile
what a nice thing to see :)

PIC: old School

2009-01-26T23:45:00.000+04:00

Remember this?
I used to love playing with it -_-

what was ur fav trick toy?

Dubai aiii aiii ayi

2009-01-26T23:24:00.000+04:00

Am in Dubai with my family :/ spending sometime far away from people ... I call our house in Oman a Hotel ,because people are always coming there.. we cant be alone for a whole damn week without guests! sometimes i feel like we have no privacy, because most of who comes to our house are those nosy kinda people.. keep asking where are you going? where you will go?

and yes i hate it!!
so I begged mam to go away for a bit since all of us have a holiday!

okay it might sound weird but i hate Dubai but i love the fact that it reminds me of my old days with my friends ... and plus i love the shopping part we have lot of options !

but whenever I come here i dont know why i dont feel safe at all ! i keep looking around when my youngest bros and sisters because i would keep imaging if they lost somewhere someone will kidnap them :/ yeah crazy i know

am looking through my hotel window and people looks funny and too small ahhh i dont know why am wearing these stupid slippers which i hate but i will wear them anyway :/ I feel sleepy but want to stay awake..

PIC: old School

2009-01-23T10:59:00.000+04:00

what was Your fav cartoon when you was a child

PIC: old School

2009-01-21T11:53:00.000+04:00

I was going to die from an electrical shock coz of it LOL!!
man i remember that day like it was yesterday

miss it so much

Our hearts goes to Gaza

2009-01-04T10:49:00.000+04:00

tagged

2008-12-31T00:26:00.000+04:00

5 things people probably didn't know about me:

well i have answered this before but i will answer this again :P Since i love tags

1- I have a mini tiny red beauty mark that i LOVE , i call it strawberry LOL!

2. I bite my nails since i was 13 whenever am worried or doing any kind of exam.

3.I hate Cereal i just eat the chocolate one without milk.

4. whenever am hungry i cook pasta even if its 4 am yup i dont give a damn

5. when i laugh too much thats mean something is wrong with me LOL!

Eid

2008-12-10T22:19:00.000+04:00

up date

2008-12-09T20:44:00.000+04:00

So today is my Bday and its the first day of Eid also

didnt feel it at all lol! yeah am weird but yeah i didnt feel its my Birthday well am 24 now and damn old LOL! so since i love the number 22 am gonna stick to that ,so my age stopped there ,am 22 you hear me :p

anyway nothing changed at all, I have been busy so much with school (exams,reports,projects and national day event) i was the organizer of the Omani exhibition and yeah my head was flying away thank god am done with it but i miss those days i had fun while killing myself LOL!! -_-

I think am going through the worst days in my life i don't know why but this what i feel ... i think am out of time and i have lot of things to do and i dont know but somethings aren't going well with me

oh i have been tagged by Dr Diablo :)

List down 5 things people probably didn't know about you

-am allergic to Kiwi lol
- I hate my major so much.but still fighting
-i wish if i can die b4 anyone else.
-am so obbessed about wrinkles i look at the mirror everyday to see if there is any new lines lol
-I was obbessed about weddings and those stuff now i dont want to get married at all

Tag at least three people

ay three ppl ya she5 i know no one :p wolfy is already tagged so yeah

Here we go

2008-11-02T19:41:00.000+04:00

So Today I didnt attend any of my classes *didnt sleep well & didnt feel well* anywaaaay

but I went to this stupid meeting at 3PM which is for our National Day Celebration event.

I dont know why the hell i care so much about such events even if it will efect my studies and all,

but i think its because i know they will screw up and make our national day looks FUNNY and stupid!

you have no idea how I love love love love Oman and I wouldn't accept t from People to make us looks like we have no culture.

what pissed me off that one of the organizers *who works in the college* said they will do African
Section in OUR Omani Section beacuse they are only 3 ... EXCUSE ME?!

i got so mad i said nothing but I will do something since one of the organizers chooses me as the president of the Omani Section I wont allow this to happen ..wth is that, do african section by your self not in our Omani one :/

seriously not because you have african roots you can just allow this to happen sorry no offence but omani culture is way too differnet from teh african one ,, so NO!

Girls~!

2008-10-28T19:33:00.000+04:00

Really who does understand them!

am a girl and i think 90% of them are freaks and have serious problems!

everyday when i meet ppl i meet really strange ones acting all nice and in a sec u discover their real faces...

I feel sorry for guys Those days really LOL!

you never can trust a girl Never

PS: there is jerk guys as well so dont be so happy :P

ah college!

2008-10-16T15:27:00.001+04:00

this is how i was like in the first day of college

so i keep missing

2008-10-08T05:30:00.000+04:00

Its hard to keep missing your friends I mean UR real Friends
sometimes i feel like am the one who keeps in touch while others
dont really give a damn

why should I?

ps: for the first time ever I miss school because i dont wanna keep thinking anymore

Okaay am back!

2008-09-27T20:25:00.000+04:00

I didn't post here since ages!
I really don't know why but it did bring back to me some bad memories..

lot of changes might happened , but i don't feel like anything majorly new happened, I came back here to Oman for good to complete my studies.*which i try to think and convenes my self its nothing*

I couldn't complete my studies in UAE because of some physical health problem ,so since Oct 2006 I came back here for good..

nothing really changed about me , i am the same old girl with a stronger personality i think!!

anyway i just wanted say that HATE my college there is lot of jerks so that's why I don't really want to make any friends in my college, that doesnt mean i dont talk to anyone!

i try to go to my home as soon as possible .. when i finish my classes i call my brother or the driver to get me back home, Thank god its 5 mins away from our house!!

anyway

I miss blogging here for some reason
most of my posts in this blog were my about my thought ...

i will try to post some of my art work soon or later ..

tc for now
xoxo

*acting like gossip girl* -_-

lies gate

2006-12-10T03:17:00.000+04:00

faking life... faking faces
looking around me to look for the truth
looking around me to look for The me!!
who i am?!! am asking!
who you are?! am wondering!
is thats you!! who i knew before!
is that you!! are you for sure!!
dont try to fake faking itself
dont try collect other faces!
because those are not yours
thats not the real... not the truth ...
and am wondering who you are!
take that cloudy look
and raise your voice and tell me
who you are?!
but you know!!
you are the mask of the hate
you are lies gate!
hide your fake faces away from me
i just got your gate key!

am here

2006-11-13T01:31:00.000+04:00

am here... watching the fear throw your eyes
am here.. knowing about the words in your mind
and am still here discovering you...
show me the picture in your hand
of the hiding clear roads ...
that u should take...
while you are sneaking ...
to see your future with me!
dont u see that i know?!
dont u realize that i believe on you?!
so why dont you give me those road lines
and let me take a walk there
to make the dream become a real!
so to let you know
am still here
watching,knowing and loving!
YOU

collect

2006-10-17T16:48:00.000+04:00

why...

2006-09-21T23:27:00.000+04:00

why you are here
looking into my eyes ...
why you are here
trying to find love?
please dont try
my love sail away
to that deaf ocean
which won't hear your beats
which won't hear you calls
the echo of your will not turn back...

no... you wont fix it
no... you wont let it go
thats what i know

so stop flying
and liying about
who you are in my life
you are just a name that i did Erase...

2006-09-13T02:40:00.000+04:00

thought you would be missing me
but it turned to be that am missing myself
and you are missing your mind...
be by myside and i would be
your bright side

missing

2006-09-10T19:25:00.000+04:00

drew it by hand
colore it by photoshop

my call

2006-09-10T02:33:00.000+04:00

feel the heat inside my soul
would somebody answer my call
just feel...
and be real
am still waiting for the call
dont you understand the pain
of being the sadness rain
yes am the rain..
of the sadness and the answer of my call...

break my wings

2006-05-14T15:16:00.000+04:00

break up my wings...
and dont let me fly..into the sky
the sky of my wildest dreams
in the drak life themes

just break my wings...
to not fake all of the things
which is not easy to fix
a broken heart with thoughts mix

and just break my wings...
i dont want to fly away
and count the day by day
when am gonna touch that sky
and fill it with the teast of cry

just break my wings
to be here and near
and froget about the tear
and drop the fear...
so just be here...

and break my wings....

to you...

2006-05-13T03:43:00.000+04:00

what would i do...
where would i live ...

do you want me to ..handel myself
and be what cant be...

ur smile ..ur eyes..ur talk
is everywhere around me..

each time ..each place
remind me of your faith...

ur love which was warm
you took the coolness from my heart
and iciness of my soul...
you justbrought back...
the life to my life

what can i say...
when you gonna be away
what am gonna do...
when you gonna go
without any clue!
but i just want u to know

that i keep my heart key
in your hand...
just to let in ur mind...
one thing...

you can always be here...
in my heart , my soul... my mind..

and in my LIFE

sorry

2006-03-09T05:03:00.001+04:00

am sorry if i didnt post from along time
but i was really busy with lot of other things,,,,and i wasnt in the mood to post in here
anything!! i donna know why!

soon u gonna see something from me ;)

hold

2006-02-04T08:20:00.000+04:00

hold me down
and keep me away from the way...

hold me down
and keep me far from that star...
keep your hands around me
and keep your past behind me...
and hold me...
your love is like a fog
which i fall into it
i can see it... and i cant feel it ...
let me feel it
so hold me down
and hold on
to hold my secret of love...you

HOLD ON!

2006-02-02T07:11:00.000+04:00

hold on your pain and be strong! thats what i do say to myself everyday ....
u can keep up your pain away from your way....by letting it go..
let yourself know who you really are.... who is you? just to hold on...
when you know how much you do respect your self you will know ,that you
have to fight till you get to your point in life and fight to not get hurt from anyone
and fight to keep on your dreams and make them come true....by believe on them ...

so hold on to be srtong and let it out!

back to uni! and to my dear blog!

2006-02-01T06:13:00.001+04:00

well i was away for a while coz of some stuff !!

whatever, i went back to UAE! to complete my studies after a real long holiday!
well sorry to all of you... i did say nothing about being away for a while ..but am back now! :)

today's tip!

2005-12-18T01:07:00.000+04:00

Dont ever break a promise...

what do u think about breaking promises?!
i would be glad to see some comments..

would you care!

2005-12-14T05:41:00.000+04:00

why there is some people who just think about what they want
and dont think about if its going to harm anyone esle!

God gave us feelings and that was for a reason...
to care about others and to feel them ,this life is not about one person!
its about each one who is alive and was in breathing is this earth...

When you do care about someone and give him/her whatever you could give
from love,care and being on his/her side ,is not a small or silly thing! its not a thing which
we can forget about... they say "give and drop it in the beach! " which mean
be a giver person and dont look back at it and dont be like i did and i did and i did to that
person and look what he did to me~! nothing...

Thats true ..beacouse when you want to let it from the heart just dont talk about it..
forget about it...but if it was about being a giver but do not get a single word! that would be hard and ya it do hurt!

beacuse its going to be like... after all love which the person sis gave he got nothing!
sometimes we go show love to get it too! but when that door was just closed when u tried
to open it! that would be really hard!

touchable things could come and goes!
but things which is not... cant be fixed ! if we did hurt somebody you cant fix that
hurt out... but you can in one case if you were VERY sure that person do
love and care about YOUR feelings....

so people dont ever hurt anyone...try to give as others ..
give as others gave you... today's tip.

walking

2005-12-12T02:52:00.000+04:00

walking around my thoughts
walking to see the truth

like a dead body walking
like nobody falling...
and am just calling ...my thoughts ...

what i see is nothing
what i feel is no loving
but what i was is the truth...

the truth which just hide
and dont ever e in my side
and am still walking around
search for my truth..
which i will never find
in this world where you are seacrhing
you will see nothing
but your self...
you will see the view of an emtpy land
which you will never had

live!

2005-12-10T21:06:00.000+04:00

21

2005-12-09T03:18:00.000+04:00

today its the day which i was born in!! ok so what!
well some people do see that day as a new page in their lives
some people think about it as a party day! just a big party for one person..
each person do think about his birthday in his own way ,in his way of thinking of that day
sometimes our look at that day do change everyday,because we get older ....

for me its just a day to which remind you that you have lost a whole year! and what you did in that year? mostly nothing...well for me i think whatever i did in this world is not enough beacuse each one can do more and more and i know that i can do more for me and who are around me AND for sure (for god) ...
when its my birthday night am like why do people think about what they didnt do in the last minte!?! and ya sometimes am one of them...

people should think in their birthday! "ooh i got older" or "gosh where should i make my party"
they should think like... i lost another whole year from my life.. what i did in that year ? and what would i do in this year "insallah"...

thats how i do think about it...
its a good thing that u got older but you gotta think about
who gave you those years ,gave it to you for a reason :)
so spend your life but watch out

tagged by taboo

2005-10-28T09:24:00.000+04:00

Seven things i plan to do:

1. to let mam and dad be always proud of me.
2. to drop this course coz i dont really feel good!
3. to draw as much as i can.
4. to show all of who do i know that i dont ever could forget a friend.
5. to lose weight 3 kilos at least!! whithout something called diet!
6. to fix all of my brothers room's in oman when i come back! they should know how it sould be!
7. to spend my time always in good things and try to know what is really life for.

Seven things i can do:

1.i can make ppl laugh!or even make them smile ;p
2. i can talk till ever or just dont till ever.
3. make a really perfect salads whatever it is ;p
4. do a really good make up if i want to!
5. find anything to made up my day.
6.i can be a good leastiner .
7. i could fix up and change all of our house in one day!

Seven things i can't do:

1. i cant see anyone crying.
2. i cant be mad at anyone more then one day!
3. wake up early in weekend!
4. handel my tears if i saw other tears!
5. wash up all of my clothes in ONE day!
6. i cant stop smiling!
7. i cant stop SHOPPING

Seven things I say most often:

MY friend nora told me that i have to put on the word (( b'3am))
i forgot it and i donna know how did i forgot it!!
so thx nora hehehehe

so b'3aaam

1.WHATEVEEER!
2. DUH!
3. LAAAA wallah!
4. thoora! << dont ask why!!
5. b'3aaam!
6. aaaaw how sweeeet!
7. dokom!

Seven people i want to pass this tag to:

1. arabian prince.
2.LYM.
3.ABS
4. um qusai.
5. the brain.
6. noors
7. i donna know!

ps; thx taboo u r a sweet girl :)

where i am

2005-10-16T03:07:00.001+04:00

where i am ?
while u r not here
where i am ...
while i can't feel your touch
while i can't hear your words
while i cant see your smile

where i am?
when you are not leasting to me
when you are not looking throw my eyes
and touching my hands..

where i am while you are not around me
am not anywhere while you are not here
am just like the air when you are not around
and am like the fire when i just see your shadow...

where i am?
while you are not here
just tell me
come back and let me be your fire
and let me say here i am..

D0o0om Do0oRm

2005-10-14T00:31:00.000+04:00

.hi there....
i just wanna show you people some of things which i did by photoshop to my dorm friends :D
i was bored so i did those things!!

its kind of weird ! but i felt like someday our computers will be like that !!!....

التمام يعني : البنت لازم توري لمشرفه السكن خشه وجهها عشان يتاكدوا ن البنات بالسكن!!! يخاوفووون علينا يا حليلهم

...

2005-10-14T00:01:00.000+04:00

living my life as am nothing!
living my life as am a part of you
while you dont know ...

am loving you for you
and you don't care about me for me

i do breath you
i do live for you

you do live for you
you do breath my pain..

sometimes i feel like i want to break m heart
by letting you in my dark side
by letting you in your mind!

am living for you
and you are living for who?

but you know ...i will live
to look at you ... to breath you
to just live for you...

UNIversity RULES!

2005-09-14T16:17:00.001+04:00

well i wanna talk about a problem that i had ,well we had (me and my frineds)
yasterday in the dorms there was a meeting with dean of the girls colleges!
and we went there to listen and know what is the new rules and whatever...
and to talk about problems and to let her know what do bother us as girls living
far away from their homes!!

...so guess what when we went there and set ...we were like gosh there is lot of girls in here
so we thought its gonna be intresting to share our problems together and to talk with her as a one voice..and u know what did we hear first!! (( GIRLS i will show u some slides of the new rules and no one talk i came here to let u know that u HAVE and SHOULD do it not to talk to me about it))
i was like WHAT!! i couldnt believe what am hearing in that momenet!..
some of the rules is

-dont bring weapons in the dorm!!! << is that a joke! where do they think that we came from! NY streets!

- dont use candels and bokoor (bu5or) << oh god i forgot that we r kids and ya we will burn up the dorm! well if they r friad of that so they should take off the cookers too!!

-cant ever let anyone of ur family or friends come in the dorm there is a room which u can meet and talk there!! << so now evern my mam can not see how do i live and where! while my dad is paying 4 that my mam can not see my room hmmm good good! maybe my mam would bring drugs or something !

- any one who do use a mobile with camera gonna be kicked out of the UNI!! <<

if they donna wanna us to use it to they have to start with this rule first! and ya they have to buy us some mobiles without cameras too!...

- there is only a trip to the girl ONCE a week! and just 4 two hours if the trip was in CC! << oops i forgot that we came from a desert and we dont go out while we r in our homes, so 2 hourse r so enough for us as girls !

so ya she was like dont talk plz... i donna wanna hear any comment just do it and thats it
coz u have too!
i couldnt handel so i got out of that room! i was like ya my dad bring me here to let them centrol me or what!... and lot of girls just got out of that meeting room they coudnt handel it too and they coudnt hear lot of other rules again!

till now i cant believe what did i heared from last night!
we r a grawing up girls everyone do have to take care of her self and
her honer too... who dont care about it would do whatever do she want to but who do care
will save her self even from A WORD! and now do they think that they r teaching us
what is right and what is wrong..

so welcome girls to sharjah jail ....and be happy till never!

AM BACK

2005-09-13T15:24:00.000+04:00

well am back!
this summer was so tuff i didnt had a real holiday!
i finished the summer course in UAE in 23 july and i went back to oman in 24jluy then
i start studing there too in 25july! is the next day!! and ya i stayed at home for one week then
my family went to salalah (coz the weather is better there in that time) and its a vication so they
have to get some freash air! so coz of that i stayed in muscat in a DROM AGAIN!
i was in my uni dorm then in my country i stayed in a dorm too!! :S
thats kind of hard,i was like i should take this subject and get it off my mind when am back to UAE again! .The subject was calculus which i most hate! i really do hate it!
but when i was in the dorm there was nothing to do but studing! and i had a point to get a good mark in this subject not to waste my time to get nothing!!
SO ya i worked so hard to get what i want, and about my fam i visit them each weeked in salalah
(do they think they will leave me 4 a month and a hulf alone..naah)
whatever i met such as a great girls in there ( the college) they were sweet girls
and i had fun around them, well my friend samyah slept over with me once and it was so sweet of her to think about me and do sucha as a good thing like that,and ya she came over to visit me so many times and i really was happy to see her again, well my friend dija was busy with work and studing ,but she was trying to call me always when she get back from work which means lot to me too.. in this summer i learned lot of things one of them that real friends r there for you always whenever u r sad or happy they are there for you...( love you guys)
and about my frinds in the uni we kept calling each other which was cool to get msgs from all over the gulf! and they were like study well insalah u gonna get what u want and something like that.... it really was hard to study all of time and stay alone in a dorm which u donna know any one in there but the walls!!
that whole month and a hulf was like a year to me! coz i learn lot of things and i get into things which i didnt ever though that i will get into it one day!
while god is always here we r fine ...u feel stronge coz of faith and that what just god want us to do ..to have faith on him....and thats what am doing being faithful..

in the end of the summer course which was on 3 sep i did my final exam and i got my marks on 4th sep morining and guess what i got B+ which was the highest mark on the class! i really was happy coz in that moment i felt like i wanna fly! hehe coz my hard work didnt go away!
and ya i went back to UAE in the same day 4sep at 4pm i was on the aiport to go back and ya to complete styding again and again!!

that was my story in the summer and why i wasnt around here!

tagged by SAM

2005-07-14T05:11:00.000+04:00

sam tagged me :D HEHEHE thats so cool
am gonna answer ur questions girl....here we go

1. What does 'love' mean to you?

love is life, love is the breath of soul...
and love is a war u could be a winner or aloser , a winner if u did find the person who deserve ur love and aloser if u gave ur love to someone who dont deserve even a little care.

2. What does "marriage" mean to you?

its a commitment in life and its the holder of love,its a holy thing in life ..two ppl live together 4 ever under the rule of love and respect.and i just wanna marry someOne who do really love me either i do coz i know that am gonna give to my future husband all of the love and respect which he never dreamed about :D

3. Do you believe in 'love at first sight?

yes i do believe in that ,well u can believe n lot of things while u r living in this werid world,but i either do believe that its not just about a sight!

4. How many children would you like?

five or six insallah and its not just about me i should ask my husband how many he wants too! but i looove kids...

5. If given the opportunity, what is that one song you would sing for me on wedding day?

well there is two songs which i do think that am gonna sing them well to u in ur wedding day hehehe

arabic song: (( merta7 a7ebak_ m7amad 3adbo)) i know u donna listen to arabic songs!! but am the one who gonna sing hehe.

english song: never gone by BSB hehehe coz we used to be a big BSB fan when we were in school and this song is really touched and i think u gonna remember every single about our friendship
:)
am really waiting 4 that day to see u as a pretty bride.

6. What is your favorite holiday destination?

ITALY MY LOVE!! a7em if it was fun and around fun& happy ppl i really dont cear where it is or where its gonna be!

7. What are three qualities you would look for in a man?

honest
understanding
fun

8. What are the three qualities and three bad habits that you have?

qualities: i could be fun ! am a good listener and i could understand anyone infront of me and. can i count crazy!!!

bad habits: haha haaa may be alot! moody sometimes! do think about others problemes alot sometimes i cant sleep if i felt that someone who i know is sad about anything!!
i do not show hate to anyone which make me get hurt from lot of ppl!!

9. Where do you see yourself in 10 years time?

Insallah if am gonna be alive till then,i see myself married to someone who i really really love and live with him in a nice house and i have got about 2kids (more insallah on the way) and got my masters degree and have good job!

aaah finaly am done!
thx 4 tagging me ya dobah!! :D

two summer courses!

2005-07-11T22:53:00.000+04:00

ya am gonna take two summer courses this year
which mean NOOO HOLIDAY!
am so dead! and ya btw am the stupied who got that idea!
ok u gonna ask why!
well first... in our summer course here we just can take two subjects
and i did added two subjects....and guess what! they closed one section
coz they said that we r few girls and we should be more to open this section!
well they r liers! we wasnt few! i talked to them and i did some calls to lot of doctors and teachers over my uni to open that section but they said that they cant!
so i was like gosh i should take this subject i should!!!
then i make some calls to oman and i asked some of my friends about the some colleges!
which have a second summer course!
and i did got some information about it,after i was sure about it i called my dad and told him about it he was like ok i will ask about it ! and i was like will i did asked about it! and i know what colleges that give the subject which i want to study and i emailed a teacher in one college and my friends helped me!
so he was like really! <<<>
whatever so i was like should get some papers from oman to give it to our uni in here
and dad did faxed it to me and i did gave them what they need! from the beging of this course i was waiting 4 the answer if they gonna be ok about it our not
and they just said its ok!! thank god :)
i know its hard but its better 4 me ....and i think that am doing the right thing!
i might live in a dorm too :S but am not sure yet!
insallah 5eer
just wish me luck...

The word

2005-06-26T23:25:00.000+04:00

living in this world let u think sometimes about what goes around you in many ways
sometimes a word could change your whole life.....in a good or in a bad way
i believe that we r here living while words could change us!!
most of us get many words everyday from anyone but sometimes one word from those many many words could be something important to u ,it could let u be the happest or the sadest one in the moment u got that word ,,,and it dependes about the person who u got the word from...
it could be a big word to someone else but it could be not to you!!
some other word could be so important to you but to others is not.....
am waiting for some words from some ppl or from some one
and everyone do wait 4 some words which can change our life from bad to good
and from good to bad!!
this is how the life is....
we live under small things which can centrol us!

freakly friday

2005-06-17T12:42:00.000+04:00

in each friday i list up the things which i did do in the whole last week!
good and bad and see what are the things which happend to me and made me happy or sad at the whole week...
and see why i did felt happy and why i did felt sad
and what r the things which made me sooo upset!
then when i look at those i just keep thinking how to not get into a mistake which i did and made my day awful and how to keep doing the things which made my day so good!
then i promise myself to not look back and complete the other week in away which
make me happy and make feel that am doing the right thing!
some of you would ask why friaday! well dont ask me why i always have been think that friday is one of the most inportant days in the whole week!
and sometimes its freak me out! like gosh maybe its gonna be the end of the world and i didnt do what all i wanna do! ( well naah!)
sometimes i just set alone and look at my future from another side
i wanna be happy and have a happy family..
looking back at the bad past make u stop thinking about ur future sometimes!
so just complete ur life in a good way and just belive in god and in ur self!
you r here for some reason not nothing!

look at my eyes

2005-06-17T12:03:00.000+04:00

I need to know the truth throw ur eyes
just look deep inside...
look at my eyes.... could u feel my love
could you feel what am talking about
just look at my eyes
and they will tell you what i feel
and how much its real
i am drowning in your warm eyes
am drowning in your love
we could walk together in that road
and to our love we will hold
i will be ur air which u breath
and I will be your heart beats
just look at my eyes and u will know
which by my words i cant show!

o slamatkom! :D

HOME

2005-05-28T19:04:00.000+04:00

home its a place which we belonge to its a place which we live in or lived in for so long....
my home is me!my home is like the heart which pump the blood to all over the body,coz if it didnt the death soon follows...we r the blood of the body the home is the heart and the body is the bond of homehold... if the heart didnt pump the blood they body well die...its like if there is no home for us or for the members of a family so there is no bond between us! and if the body is allready dead thats mean there is no heart or blood...a haert which is dead and a blood which is not there or just frozen it is place! thats mean there is no family and no home!.... and if there wasnt any blood over there the heart well had nothing to pump and in the other hand the body is dead too!!! if there is no members which love or just care about each others thats mean there is no home which all of them belonge too! there is nothing could keep the family together even if it was for few mintes like home!
the blood comes and goes to the heart that how we comes and goes to the same place which we love and which we have memories in like home!!!

my soul doctor
me