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Thursday, March 24, 2005
JUST SomeOne...

its a feeling that u just got it and u just want to take it of your mind sometimes...
when there is that person who do help u and always be in ur side and push u always to the top!
and u just feel that person is going to be a way from you or going to disappear
and u just sticking to last hope ..and just hold it soo tight and droup tears from thiking of losing that person...

someone who was and still here for me and maybe not for me but just to made a heart happy and draw little smile on my face..

could u be just here always ... how can i live without you
since i saw ur heart and just since i hold ur soul to mine..i knew that u r there for me
keep ur hands on me and feel my breath when it comes out and in hoping to get in ur breath and dont take it out!!

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

well i dont know how to begin with this here...
i just wanna talk about some girls which i really love and really adore them!
they r my friends in the our stupied dorm.

i just knew that they are the best this this year..just this year !! i have been in this dorm for about 2years! and my worst year was the first one,not just coz it was like kind of hard to be away from my family no ,but coz first i had the most awful friends ever...they lied to me alot and actied like angles for a whole year and i didnt know about them till they just get into a fight between each other and just open up their dirty mouth and told me about each one of them and what does each one says about me!! they were talking about me behind my back.and i didnt ever hurt anyone of them i was trying to be nice as much as i can... and they were just like animals each one of them run for her dirty needs and i was just like dont know about anything!!!
then i just take them off from my life i forgave them so many times and there were like keep hurting me,but in the end i was like i donna know u anymore....

some people say that bad memories are like a black mark in ur book of life
but what i say they were just a little dirty paper and i just take it off my book coz i just want it to be always clean and clear >>> (( not the face cleaner:p))

well any way day by day i knew some girls which was like knowing me before but i wasnt that close with them ,they knew about me and what happend and they just stand by my side and helped me alot and i did so and we still,we are sharing everything here and we really having fun we just try to forget about sad things which happend to each one of us, most of us get hurted from lot of things while we are living here in the dorm...
now we r are agroup of 15 girls hehehe big enough i know!
some of us share classes and do help each others in home works and studing2
we do help each other either in stole little katchup bags from our friend's rooms hehe and in the end we got cought!!
in this semester we decame very close coz we knew each others better then we was and we are in the same block in the same dorm.. best block ever!
sometimes we had fights ,,well ya dont say GOSH they are girls! but not real fights just and sometimes some of us hit each other as ajoke then it became a real and its really funny i just lough to death when i just rememeber it!

we are girls from different gulf countries but here we live as we are from the same country and i cant even think that one of them is missing!

i wanna give each one of them some words i know that i cant explain what in my heart and how much i really love them as a sisiters ,friends and not a lesbians at all ok!!

saudi girls:

-B: yo wass up? how are u doing? where is the coffee and am ur mother.. well u will get it hehe
you are from the nicest girl ever which i have seen just be ur self..and dont forget am the (( naqed el fani)). i donna know how could some people try hurt a gril which is like u ,u always make me lough and just reminds me of my poems things i love lot of things on u and the most thing is that u r you.. o slamatkom

-T: wallah i dont know how should start! you are girl who just smile and i hate her when she feel sleepy and became a zombi coz am the one who should be the zombi not you!,well i could say one thing u r the best ever,love u:) ya 3omri enteeeen! when u act like a kid u really make me lough and all of us now do have those freaky sounds when we try to get it like u!! u r a real friend.

-M: gosh i donna know what should i say about u,u get a sweet heart and i really feel safe when am talk to u ... i cant say how much i feel so glad when u talk to me and do care about my problems..thx alot i cant forget how sweet u r .i like it when i see u run after Z to stop her from hiting B & F by her hands and flaters.

-A: yo net nerd sometimes i just feel like i wanna pull u from that chair and see walking around the dorm! u r a sweet girl which reminds me of cuala which i love..and from few weeks i figuer that u r areally good poem writer..i know that each girl of as really want to get a poem from u,after what we heared!

-Z: hey yo little cow! 7areeega whats wrong with u those days just run after B & F while u r screaming am gonna kill you!! abooo 3ad ma baqara hehe.. well Z u know u are this girl who i could never ever forget how much she helped me and how much he sat with me to let me feel better..thx alot ..btw be quite and sweet as ur sis :p hehe well u r donna worry

-D: well girl u r a cute sweet girl and u baceme NERD TOO!! i hated it at first then i was like cool we have a nerd around here hehe... well i really love to see your smile and i hate to see you sad or feeling bad about anything i really do care..

-F: well this girl i had lot of fights with her:p but always in the end things try to be good between us 2, i like how u was and i really wanna u to be as u was ,ican see that u r trying to and thank god that u r coz u know whats right and wrong now:)

now omani girls:

-B: hehehe sometimes i know what i want by an eye look!and sometimes i just get one year to get what she mean and am like WHAT?!!she is stronge and know how to bit :p but either she knows how to deal with me sometimes and know how to let me lough about things on me! we really had good time togther and we still.. dont forget about poems corner u hate it i know and i loved it coz u do hehehehe

-S: well miss turkISH ok the spell is wrong so what! both of us had lot of good memories in the dorm and ya we had some of bad memeries too which we just try to throw it behind us and try forget about it and replace it with good once .those months ur like getting far but i know miss becoming nerd why is that hehehe... and yal sa7ra be cool about it ... u teached somer of us how to cook hehe i cant forget that:p

-M: ya allah u know what ur haert is so clean keep it like that and be ur slef i really like ur way of your talk and i hate it when u talk in brithes! hehe... well dont forget the findi bag its mine now! ur lough made me lough and u really remind me of pink panther! i know u donna wear pink that much but u R hehe:D

_J: miss diet you always telling me dont eat from BK then u do?? AFAAA hehehe
well u r so quite girl and sometimes when i scream am just like WHAT?? thats not her no no
well u know me i love eating but am not fat well not that fat hehehe and u gotta eat what u want and dont froget to get me that miss call if u were daying from diet ok!!

kuwaiti girls:

-F: GOSH i love u! you r that girl who loves everyone and get the everyones love! ur soul and heart are the whitest ones ever ...i dont ever can imagin our gruop without u you r a spiceal girl and u gonna be always like that... and btw i didnt love a family as much as i do love your whole family i love ur mam and sisters and anties and wel let brothers in other side i donna wanna be killed from u! and ur whole girls in ur family :) i love u so much

-D: hmmm what can i say about agirl who was like qutie then she baceme like a crazy girl hehe
you r new between us and i know it was hard for u to come to a new country and to live here away from ur family..but u was stronge enough i really was like masallah! ur style is awesome really some of ur clothe r really cool heheheh and some of them i really dont even think that i will look good at them..btw loved ur colorful skirt hehe...keep smilling and be always that sweet girl.

hehehe and now the big gruop of girls ever bahrain girlS :!! I MEAN GIRL

-E: well ya sa6or you r other story what i realy love in u that u r so crazy and loud like me hehehe .. u always lough and smile and do talk loud in cinema as me i love that..
and i hate u when u get into that stupied awufl mood..so YOKO dont u ever dare to be in that mood again i just HATE IT!! i love when i see u runing in the hall and i like it when we do crazy things togther like scraming outside and say things about lesbians like there is nobody wallah 7allah!! we r sooo kicked out of uni!! <<<>

in the end i wanna say that i love you all
and am sorry if i did hurt anyone of u if i did ..u gotta know that i really dont ever want to hurt anyone which i love and care about
now till ever all of u are a part of my life and apiece of my heart..
god bless you all and insallah we gonna be togther 4ever ok not just in the dorms ya3ni
7asa ma 9arat lasqa hehee...

peace out!

ps: the order is by the bigest contry gruop and by rooms so dont be like why am here and why am there hehehe


Thursday, March 17, 2005
well another list!!

i saw lot of listes around many blogs so i was like lets have a list! hehe
well count another copy-cat !!

this is my list:

1- well am thinking how to start! (besm elah)
2- sometimes am soo crazy!
3- i talk too much! and sometimes i just zip my mouth.
4- when i see new people i just be quite for few mins then i just forget about myself and startto be like i do know them from a long time!
5- i love salads to death! i can eat it till ever!
6- am loud.. and i know its not a good thing! but i always like do know that after i see how people look at me...they r like gosh whats wrong with her..
7-am the oldest one from all of my brothes and sisters and i do miss them so much.. :'(
8- am studing comupter S and thank god am starting to hate it..
9- i love this number (( 9 ))
10 my room is soo messy and it looks like a ZOO now!but i will fix it up now!
11- i talk too fast ,sometimes my dad donna undersatnd me and he is like ''is somebody runing behind u'' !!
12- in life am like a copy of my dad in somethings and am trying to be like him..he is the best.
13- i love oman as hell and i cant wait till i come back!
14- the best ever thing in our dorm, there r some of wonderful girls, i love u girls! u r the best.
15- i have lot of friends here in UAE from all of the gulf countries and even from other arabian and african countries.
16- i want to complete my studies and get a master as soon as i can insalllah.
17- sometimes am sooo moody!
18- i love my old friends so much.. enigma,dija,jojo,nusy. miss u girls
19-i wanna meet up with lot of sabla girls!
20- am 20 now!
21- i will be 21 in 9/12/2005 insallah! DONT FORGet it!
22- i hate nighthmares!
23-i wanna get a car!
24-but not till i get back.. :(
25- i love kids.
26- i hate models.
27- u know why? well u donna have too :D
28- i cant drink warm water!
29- sometimes i cant even think that am gonna live without someone here!
so i donna try to think about it!
30- i wannat to visit ITLAY i could visit AMO too!
31- and i wanna go to new mexico to meet up with dorellam & her cute kids.
32-i love my laptop.
33- ihate it too when it froz
34- sometimes i kiss it every morning.
35- coz its form my dad!
36- i look like my mam,with alittle touch from my dad! :)
37- i like to draw and write about what i feel or think...
38- i call the dorm.. our prison or el e9la7ya!
39- there r lot of lesbians here its EW!
41- am in love with BK's frais.
42- i do eat alot when i dont know what to do.
43- i cant ever ask my dad for money i just get shy!!! i call my sis to do that 4me!
44-sometimes i donna call her and i just stay broke for days.
45-once i staied without any money for 5days i cant forget those days... and i was like am ok! but i wasnt hehe..
46- nobody knows... just my sis after i told her.
47- i love my childhood it was werid!
48-i donna like summer and its coming now!
49- what u see is what u get!!
50- i wanna have six kids insallah!
51- well i guess i need to get a husband first :S
52-sometimes i just sleep when i want to forget about things around!
53- i love reading.
54- but i hate books!!!!
55- i do lough about stupied things somtimes!
56- just lough it's the best!
57- i hate it when i smile and the other person that i smiles to goes like :( and donna bring my smile back!!
58- life is not easy.
59- well i know that u know!
60- ok somebody take off my hands from the keybored!
61-nobody is here!!
62- ok this is not my life story!
63- i learn lot of being far from my famliy,friends and OMAN.
64- girls r SUCK sometimes!
65- i wanna get a CUALA...
66- but i cant get it..
67- i injoy knowing new people.
68- but i dont injoy get hurt from them.
69- i hate this number.
70- dont trust anyone.. thats what i know now.
71- trust ur slef first then trust others
72- to get hurt from somebody that u didnt even hurt its really a bad feeling.
73- ok i guess i did like this list thing!
74- well plz my fingers can u stop.
75- am i talking to my fingers??? gosh
76- last things...
77- i love love
78- i hate hate
79- tears r not a solve!
- this me,myself & I....

aaaah am done.. OOPS one more thing!! i love (( donna )) word :D

Thursday, March 10, 2005
It hurts when am breathing!

when u set alone and just think what goes around you! and a round the world ..what do u feel??
sometimes i just give y ind a break of thinking! i think alot about everything around and i do search for the truth a round me! thats what god wanna us to do thats why we r alive to know whats going on around us ,why we r alive and why is life?
but when i think about everything in a moment i really get hurt and i feel its just hurts when am breathing... i donna have any health condition,but it really hurts when i just set and think about everything!!! when i was alittle girl till now i learn from life as everyone,but what i know that i did get lot of things from life which is older then me!! do u know what i mean!!
i mean that i did get into things which i wasnt ready for it when i was a kid .. i lived my childhood but i was like thinking in an older way! ya i was naught and i still but that doesnt mean that am stupied or donna care about life or donna know about lot of things around me...
it hurts when am breathing if i just feel that no one could undersatnd what i feel or i just think about life from all of the sides! no just the bright side... look aound u and know about life donna say that ya am young i still get life i should enjoy everything! ya injoy but be wise and be us self!

GOSH i hate exams!!

hey why do we have exams !! and why should we study so hard then they give us
a hard exam which we cant answer it!!!
isnt there another way to put degrees without exams!
well am little mad at our teachers! they do think that they r doing a great job
if they gave us hard questions! and i hate that smile in our teacher's face! when he asks
as how is the exam easy ha?? << (( could anyone hit his stupied head))
i know its a stupied post but i felt like i just wanna share my feelings! a7m
Sunday, March 06, 2005
just CRY!

its a weried topic maybe! but thats what i feel now i wanna cry....
everyone around me and who knows me well know that am not that person who cry 4 anything...
am sensitve sometimes yah thats true but i hate to cry infront of anyone if that was coz am hurt of someone! i was just like draw or write what in my heart and mind to forget everything!
now am far away from lot of close ppl! and i donna have who do undersatnd me here really! maybe just ONE and i cant find that person anytime!
everyone is busy and whatever i just set alone in my room and wonder about this world and why do ppl like to hurt each other and then be like i didnt do anything,did i ???
thank god am trying to be stornge as i am always,but u know there is a limit for u to handel things some ppl could handel it for years and i did but now am done i cant i just wanna cry till my tears stop by it slef! yes i do smile and try to let everyone around me smile too i donna wanna be the reason of anybody's sadness! so just cry ya am talking to my self u girl cry and take off those things which hurted u 4 hours,days,weeks,months and years... !
am cring and am feeling better to be alone in my room cring and then wash my face!
you know what,tears wich drops all over my face made me happy!!