cant be cruel

I cant believe how some people can be so cold and heartless...
yes when i get mad or upset at something or someone.. I will sure not be my normal self , I would cry , I would raise my voice maybe or just sit all alone and try to sleep and sleep to forget about it ..

But i never thought for a moment there would be people around who would want to harm me .. while I treated them so right , i was there for them while they needed me in good and bad, i showed them how much i love them and how much i care about them, even in the smallest silliest ways ever.

because thats just me... i love to see people around happy and smiling, yes i care too much sometimes and it might be annoying to some. like when my brothers stay out late ,I keep calling them till i make sure they are fine.. its out of love not being noisy or anything i just want to make sure they are just fine..I cant sleep sometimes when I feel like i might did something wrong to someone and will bother me till it even hunt my dreams sometimes..

It hits me sometimes and i go like I should treat all those who did harm me the same way.. swear at their faces, talk behind their backs around everyone, or physically and hurt them the way they did to me.. but I cant i just cant,,, its not me... for a long time i have been thinking what did I do wrong? what did I do to make them do this? and when i try to collect all the things around me that happened , i doubt myself again and again thinking no way .. NO ONE WILL EVER hurt anyone this way without a reason so i keep thinking i might be "wrong" ... but all the things that i did to them...didn't and wouldn't harm them in anyway ...

it hurts so bad that when you do all the good things and get that kind of a reaction ...a bad one..

I wouldnt lie and say I tried to be like them ...cruel
but in the end of the day i would hate myself because am just not that person,, am not like them
I just cant be like that , sometimes i wish soo bad i can be 10% like them to show them how does it feels like... i failed badly ...

I failed but am Happy that am not that low am just not

am blessed to have good people around me
this year has been a really hard year, i have seen lot of masks falling off
but it made me who i am..it did teach me lot of lessons

stay up, raise ur head up high and dont look down two the lower level ... they wouldn't be like you and I wouldnt change who they are...

10:57 PM .
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have a lovely day

4:27 AM .
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Barcelona: Part One

To all Barca Fan
in this day we won over Sevilla FC 4-0 :P

12:36 AM .
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Tagged

Tagged By Kitten

sorry i had to do this long time ago and i just remembered since i kept it on my draft

6 things people can’t tell about you when they first meet you:

1- Babies are my weakness, if i saw one i would lose my focus right away lol

2-I love politics! people would think am this girl who wont ever be interested in such a thing, but am into politics i love to watch political debates and i would love to be a part of one , one day ,Political science was one of the majors i wanted to study.

3-I would touch a snake but i would NEVER EVER like to even LOOK at a cockroach they discuss me the most!

4- I know how to shot, yes using a gun and Rifle.

5- am a very very proud Omani ! am nice and all, but when it comes to Oman you better be careful .

6- I love Hello Kitty LOL! i think shes adorable and cute! i want her toaster and


I would like to thank Kitten for the tag :)

2:52 AM .
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Madrid

Who ever goes to Madrid should visit the

Santiago Bernabéu Stadium of "Real Madrid"

am not a fan of them am a Barcelona fan ,but we have 3 Real Madrid Fans in the house lol ,so we had to go there, it was fun to be honest , for me to see the history of the team and how it started ,since it was open in 1902!

We were looking for a place that serves Halal food for lunch,This Arabian restaurant which was "NEW" as they said , very tiny but it costs 3times the price of any high class restaurant in Oman it was funny that they didn't even have a menu in arabic nor english! only Spanish the arabian waiter was working there didnt even understand arabic very well! lol it was a shock to me to be honest i felt sorry for "us" Arabs , whenever anyone comes to oman and doesnt look "Omani or Arab" talk to them in English without a second thought. here you will see very rare people talking other than their language




M Vodafone SIM Card .. also no directions in English "ALL SPANISH!"
LOVED their architecture so beautiful

10:14 PM .
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The Pain Is Gone

The Pain is Gone
in my thoughts I just drown
but The scars are Remain


Whenever i Look at them I remember You
I remember how much pain you have Cost me
I remember that I should walk away
But am still here
but the pain is gone

marks
scars
& tears

that what have left on me

You
Your Pain
& Your words

that what have left me

I keep my head up high
and let my spirit fly
without asking why

My pride will never go down
I will never be a clown
like you
or for you
my Pride is my Crown
and The Pain is just Gone
The Pain is Gone ...

5:11 AM .
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Steve Jobs throough the Years 1998-2010

wow he doesnt like to change his style doesnt he!
source

5:58 PM .
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inspiration in a picture

5:12 AM .
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I Stand up

I cry
and my tears dropping down
and i look at them
dropping in the ground
while no one is around

tear by tear
drop by drop

till i can see my reflection

who's that girl crying?
I Question myself
Who's that Girl Dying
a step by step

its me?
no its it not
I forgot whos that girl is
and its Just me...*sigh*

what happened to me
to the smile to the joy you see
I dont want to be whos in the reflection
there is no real connection

am strong
never was wrong

and I stand up
no matter how many times i fall
I stand up
I wipe my tears away
and I stand up
looking at the coming day
and when I fall
I will Stand up

no tear I will show
no fear I will grow

the old me is gone
and my life line is drawn

7:35 PM .
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World Cup Final match

Holland Vs Spain Final match in the WC
i would miss the WC so much since it was fun to watch
am sad that Brazil was kicked out soo soon , and thats why am cheering for SPAIN!

10:00 PM .
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stand up for myself

10:22 PM .
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Phet

In 2007 Guno hurricane hit oman, and costed lot of damage to the some areas..it was horrible.
now in 2010 they said there is a hurricane called "Phet" might hit oman in those couple days ..

i hope its not so serious we need rain yes but we dont need hurricanes ..
so may god have mercy on us.. we wish for the best

11:47 AM .
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Resist the Power! Saudi Arabia

watch his interesting show by mtv

I didnt like some parts to be honest they .. us arabs MIGHT understand whats going on in there but them "western" would get it in a bad way and think its "ISLAM" not just the culture in ksa
share your thought

4:13 PM .
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and the most shallow person award goes to...

...This American solider who video taped Iraqi innocent kids and kept making fun of them and called them "Gay and terrorists" he called the video "future gay terrorist" and posted in his FB page... so disturbing I really feel so bad for those kids he has NO reason to do such a thing boredom or whatever they call it.. you cant do such a thing to "KIDS" they are kids for god's sake! really it makes burn inside to see such a thing , Iraqis or not they are kids!


watch

source

6:43 PM .
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الي ما يعرف الصقر... يشويه

Its an Arabic saying i cant explain it 100% lol
but its says "who doesn't know whats a falcon is,would eat it" *i don't wanna say fry it will sound cheesy lol

and its so true...
who doesn't know who you really are would do stuff to you that would hurt you
but they will regret later .. so bad ;)

funny how when you treat people in a good way they stab you in the back
and they worth nothing..
when i look at who i am and who are they i can see them soo low and down there..
am up why would i look down?

I can't even believe that I gave them a chance to be a part of my life, why would I?


5alene foq a7san wa 5alehum t7t in their dirty ugly world

6:22 AM .
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Shots I Took

11:17 AM .
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Miss made me sad 2010

Miss USA 2010 Is a 24 year old stunning arab girl who lives in USA *Muslim* only by name in my opinion* her name is Rima Fakir

People went crazy when she won.. *Arabs to be exact* they think its a good thing that she won as the first "Muslim" Arab.. she is beautiful and all but seriously..
why would we feel happy ? is it something that Arabs achieved and should be proud of? what to be proud of.. seeing a muslim girl showing off her body in a bikini and did nothing good to the community she lives in .and have been a winner of a strip club pole competition ? and they present her as the first Muslim Miss USA LOL!

wow just wow
that made me sad

4:11 AM .
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The Difference between a Woman and a Man

9:28 PM .
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Ma na Ma naa

whenever am in a Bad mood
I would watch this to feel better
its funny!

11:58 PM .
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This is Stupid

So the job is ok
at least i feel like am doing something!
am happy that I learn and get experience *coz that was my goal*
our manager is very helpful which is a great thing and you cant always have a cool manager!

the thing that i cant get over with is how some people react when they see me in the office

- "entee hena?? mn mata?! 3ad ma was6a?!" wth i accepted the job in the college so no one say this word "was6a" and i think when someone envy's you they would say it no matter how they believe you deserved at the first place.


-"oh ashoof el '6fareyat kathro fel college" aha so el'6ofaris are not Omanis ?! -_- hate those kinda comments when they include "you '6ofaries" like we are from another planet.


- a girl came into my office and was like :you are '6farya? you dont look '6fareyaa?" so how the F you figured out that am '6farya in the first place *my accent is not 100% '6ofari since i lived here my whole life BUT i didnt even talk to her i just said give me ur ID card -_-"

-there is this man in the office who i think didnt accept the fact that am new there so he acts like am not a human who needs a break and sometimes he discuss with the girl who's next to me and talk about who will take the break first and its like AM NOT THERE! and he goes like "******" is here she can stay and you go to the break if i didnt come yet~! *since we cant Leave the office empty and someone should stay*
he needs time to get used to me i guess LOL!

am still nice if this didn't stop i should do something really! I didnt even tell the manager coz am not that kinda person I give chances..and i GAVE lot of chances till now lol!

those are shots i took from my desk in the office i was doodling since we didnt have much work today, which is boring & I like to work!

11:42 PM .
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